ups and downs.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
this week. hmm. a mixture of fun, exhaustion, pain, blahblahblah. i've been pretty temperamental this week. probably due to the lack of sleep. i'd have to agree that im suffering from insomnia.i've quit the starhub job after like 2 days i guess. every job i get, i quit halfway. but that job. god, don't wish to talk about it. it just made me realise that some hdb blocks are pretty screwed up.
the next day, went for an interview around dhobby ghaut. for prudential. im still waiting for the call. hopefully, i get this job. im desperate for money. & to make matters worst, fyda introduced this shop which specialises in scrapbooking. god, i want to make a scrapbook. the materials sold there were all so PREE-TAYYY! & expensive. i need money. my hands are itching to start making my scrapbook. right, fyda and huzzy?
i guess i need to control my anger too. i got somebody in trouble. luckily it wasn't sooo serious. if not, i'll feel really gulity. lesson learnt, no matter how angry i get, i shd keep the secrets im meant to keep. i should learn to control.
i know im messed up. i say something, but i end up doing something else. this time i only kept to it for two weeks? pathetic much. im VERY angry at myself. very very very angry. at times, i dnt even know myself, like i've become so vulnerable just because of that. idk wht to do anymore. maybe i really need one tight slap, so i'll wake up. i need to wake up. i need to.
i seriously wonder. it took me almost 2 years that time. i wonder how long it will take me this time?
yes laaaa, im a sunflower.
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