its the weekend again. per usual, i have nothing to do. my ear problem isn't even going away, in fact its getting wayy worst than before. i can't sleep properly for two nights straight, falling asleep only after 4am. there is no way i am able to wake up late, leaving me feeling lethargic the whole day. im not the sort who is able to have afternoon naps. last night was the worst, the pain was super unbearable. i had to move about constantly to reduce the pain, i moved and moved to the point that i ended up sleeping on the cold tiled floor without a pillow and a blanket. and yes, it is very painful right now and i am still very half deaf. this pain is driving me nuts. i can't talk properly cause i always feel that im talking loudly when in fact i sound so soft that people constantly say "huh? huh?" when i say something, i can't hear properly, i lost the whole feeling of singing whenever i hear a song cause i feel that my voice sounds super deep and super not nice and i can't even eat without feeling pain. i hate it that my ear pain is causing discomfort to the movement of my mouth. i hate it that my ear pain is causing me to be super lazy when it comes to communicating with other people. if only i have the power to detach my ears until it gets better. so, dear lovely ears of mine, please be well by monday, if not, i have to drag myself to the doctor again because my antibiotics are finishing and that is what the doctor told me. so just listen to me and get well. tyvm.

i can't even watch my boys over flowers online, cause the website has removed its videos. so stupid. -.-

"im sorry, but im afraid its not really good news. " its happening all over again. stupid sickly me. this is making me feel that i miss bestf ads, i miss bestf huzzy, i miss bestf sarinah, i miss mell darling, i miss diva darling and i miss him. ):

its the weekend again. per usual, i have nothing to do. my ear problem isn't even going away, in fact its getting wayy worst than before. i can't sleep properly for two nights straight, falling asleep only after 4am. there is no way i am able to wake up late, leaving me feeling lethargic the whole day. im not the sort who is able to have afternoon naps. last night was the worst, the pain was super unbearable. i had to move about constantly to reduce the pain, i moved and moved to the point that i ended up sleeping on the cold tiled floor without a pillow and a blanket. and yes, it is very painful right now and i am still very half deaf. this pain is driving me nuts. i can't talk properly cause i always feel that im talking loudly when in fact i sound so soft that people constantly say "huh? huh?" when i say something, i can't hear properly, i lost the whole feeling of singing whenever i hear a song cause i feel that my voice sounds super deep and super not nice and i can't even eat without feeling pain. i hate it that my ear pain is causing discomfort to the movement of my mouth. i hate it that my ear pain is causing me to be super lazy when it comes to communicating with other people. if only i have the power to detach my ears until it gets better. so, dear lovely ears of mine, please be well by monday, if not, i have to drag myself to the doctor again because my antibiotics are finishing and that is what the doctor told me. so just listen to me and get well. tyvm.

i can't even watch my boys over flowers online, cause the website has removed its videos. so stupid. -.-

"im sorry, but im afraid its not really good news. " its happening all over again. stupid sickly me. this is making me feel that i miss bestf ads, i miss bestf huzzy, i miss bestf sarinah, i miss mell darling, i miss diva darling and i miss him. ):