a battlefield ain't it?
Monday, July 13, 2009
pardon me, but i need to blab alot here.
these past few days have been nothing, absolutely nothing, but fcking horrible. i can't eat nor sleep properly. i can't even sit still without the feeling i have to do something, cause when i have nothing to do, i start to think, start to think nonsense. i ended up doing all the housework, just to get certain stuff out of my mind. well, it works for the brief moment only. but, the pain, was nothing, but really excruciating, i couldn't even breathe properly, it left my stomach having this terrible feeling and it sucked my whole energy out of me. i couldn't stop thinking about it, it was stuck in my head, and it was really causing me to be terribly exhausted.
all i want is for things to be alright. i want to avoid complicated situations, but it seems i am never far from them, i just can't seem to avoid them. i am willing to compromise to avoid complicated situations, but i never seem to get out from it. i realised how fast things can change. from being absolutely okay and alright, thinking that all is solved, to suddenly the next moment, everything seems to go wrong again. i thought the pain would finally go away, i guess not.
one minute its love, then suddenly, its like a battlefield. one word turns into war. so, tell me, why does love always feel like a battlefield?
a battlefield ain't it?
Monday, July 13, 2009
pardon me, but i need to blab alot here.
these past few days have been nothing, absolutely nothing, but fcking horrible. i can't eat nor sleep properly. i can't even sit still without the feeling i have to do something, cause when i have nothing to do, i start to think, start to think nonsense. i ended up doing all the housework, just to get certain stuff out of my mind. well, it works for the brief moment only. but, the pain, was nothing, but really excruciating, i couldn't even breathe properly, it left my stomach having this terrible feeling and it sucked my whole energy out of me. i couldn't stop thinking about it, it was stuck in my head, and it was really causing me to be terribly exhausted.
all i want is for things to be alright. i want to avoid complicated situations, but it seems i am never far from them, i just can't seem to avoid them. i am willing to compromise to avoid complicated situations, but i never seem to get out from it. i realised how fast things can change. from being absolutely okay and alright, thinking that all is solved, to suddenly the next moment, everything seems to go wrong again. i thought the pain would finally go away, i guess not.
one minute its love, then suddenly, its like a battlefield. one word turns into war. so, tell me, why does love always feel like a battlefield?
